You've wanted this your whole life. You've begged, prayed, cried, and dreamed.
And on the horizon, you see the answer.
You run to it... spirit soaring... heart recognizing it's own dream.
As you reach to embrace it, you see amidst the hundreds of similarities, a core difference. And with horror you realize, this is not the long-awaited answer to your dream.
Your heart - a dichotomy.
One half, picking up it's shattered pieces - telling itself that in finding an answer so close to what it's dream was, there must be another one out there that fits perfectly.
The other half, willing and ready to give up - telling itself to focus on the similarities, and ignore the core difference. Mold your dream into a new one... one that melds with this answer, because life is short.
And you know, that even though you want the part of your heart that is ready to give up to win, true happiness would not be found with a core difference.
So, you continue on... begging, praying, crying and dreaming.
2 comments:
Aw, Linds... I can only imagine what made you write this, but I feel like you are describing my career right now. I am so stressed out about where my professional life is going - is that it for you, too?
HUGS,
Amanda
My dear friend, prayers are being prayed for you! Hugs sent your way,
Kerin
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